HAVEN'T WRITTEN IN SEW LONG

aahJGHKJFHG! SO! Exams are over and I am done MATH, CHEMISTRY and BIOLOGY for the REST OF MY LIFE!!!! Sooooo good! Very stoked about that. Very much indeed.

Anyways, a lot's been going on, an extreme amount of spiritual growth and renewing...lovin' that...my aunt has been down the whole month and it's been awesome hanging out with her and learning about her life and career, selling gold/oil/diamonds all over the world, and also finding out about all these top secret government stuff that no one else knows!! muauahah, its really cool though for real, I'm lovin that.

As well, lots of new people are comin into my life, meeting them at youth groups or local shows or Facebook (God bless it), overall just a ton of sick new kids I can call my friends :)!

The other day my aunt and cousin took me to the University of Windsor after my math exam (last one:D) and I hung out there for the afternoon to see what it was like and all that groovy goodness. I hung out in the keyboard room in the Music building and loved it, sooo many nice Yamaha's to jam on for hours on end! Of course we were only there for about twenty minutes before we moved on. I toured the business building, student centre, some other buildings, and the ART building was my favourite. THE ENTIRE TIME I felt God tugging my heart as I was walking around the university (namely the Art building which is off campus by about 3 minutes of walking and right next to a mcdonalds=perfect for late night dinners!), before then I had always worried about university because it sounded so daunting and unneseccary for my life, but now I know that God wants me at the U of Windsor for some reason, because I just KNOW in my heart that my life will be forever changed there. He has blessed LIL OL ME with a BRAIN that apparently astounds my entire family, I think its normal, but my intelligence shocks my parents and my mother cries when she tells people about it. Which is weird for me to talk about, but nonetheless, I must take my talents and MULTIPLY them for the world to see, so that one day, I may hear the phrase "Well done, thou GOOD and FAITHFUL servant!"

Apart from the excitement and peace and joy I experienced upon my first day at the university, I am hoping and praying to be able to attend a Womens Encounter Weekend held at Windsor Christian Fellowship, the newest church I am attending for Youth Group purposes every friday for food, chillage and JESUS TIME! It is $80 which is pretty hefty for me seeing as I am working towards a nice iTouch or possibly Camera of my own (everyone has their own camera in my family but me--my little brother has 3!!), so that could be an issue, but if Gods will is for me to be in attendance then all will work out! Then comes the problem of my PARENTS allowing me to go! Which I will not explain the circumstances in Blog formation because that would take too much time and I am a tired panda.

Tonight me, Tom, Nicole, Kendall, Brooklyn and Ryan Fields all had a nice bonding session as we talked about hugs, gay people, piercings, music and everything in between, it was really enjoyable, tonight was a good night for me for I was in need of SERIOUS hope and redemption filled LOVE from God! I was hit with some hard truths before I went out tonight, I am a COMPULSIVE LIAR to my parents and it NEEDS to come to an end, I will tear out my own eyes before I am told to go to Hell. This is a TURNING POINT in my life and I feel that within the next month I will be transformed SPIRIT to BODY in my life and mindset.

and, never ask me to play fooseball, EVER! Here is a sample dialogue of the situation between me and Tom Malone (he was his own one-man team, me and Kendall on the other):
Sofia *loses point*: "Ohhhh no ya don't! I'm not givin up just yet! I have scored on myself ONE TOO MANY TIMES!"
Tom: "Ahahah what did you just say?! Yeah prolly, you'd be LAST to be picked on a team, Sofia!"
Sofia: "yeah I wouldn't be picked at all...everyone would just move on...GUYS? GUYSSS? Thats okay, I'll scorekeep!"
Tom: "Hhahaha even then you might screw that up!"
Sofia: "hahahah prolly, AWWW PLUS FIVE?"
Tom: DANG IT I lost my point, Justin's getting good at this, Sofia I think you're messing things up by being scorekeep!"
Sofia: "ahah maybe, it must be my energy..around his table...causing everyone to lose!"
Tom: "LOL"


yeah, sorry, longest blog ever. it was well overdue.
i'll be writing again soon and more often, I have the EASIEST semester EVER now so I'll have plenty of homework-less time to waste! :)

be faithful and GOD BLESS YOU!

-sof

Rightfully made and designed

learning about myself and the woman I was created to be is currently my favourite thing in life. now that I am growing at an unprecendented right by the day it truly is fascinating to see more pieces of the puzzle being put together. not that I can actually see them, for the most part. I can only see a few vague pieces here and there, but what's thrilling is that sometimes I can just feel them being placed together, skillfully and gracefully by the highest power in all the universe.

my life continues to be fruitful and my blessings are multiplied by the day, whether I realise it or not. one of which consists of my family. All my mother's sisters and younger brother are all so enlightened and driven by God in their lives, it's amazing, and it took me 16 years to fully understand and appreciate everything they've done for us, the neices, nephews, sons and daughters. moreover, my dearest Baba and Deda(may God bless his resting soul that I may see him again one day), have sacrificed more in their lives for my generations' sake than I think I can fully grasp.

Either way, lately I've been loving the new friends and insights I've gained, they've helped me achieve new perspectives on life in general, I love my friends so much, Deline, Clay, Simona, Karli, Josh, Chris, Dan, Rebeckah, Dave, Tom, Myles, Naomi, Julie, Jenn...awesome people. Can't live without em.

What I need is more community involvement. I'm hoping and praying to someday belong to a church where I can grow TOGETHER with members of my family in Christ, and meet the best spiritual brothers and sisters I can. The time is coming nearer, I can feel it, and in due time it'll be here, and my life will take on a thrilling start like I have never quite experienced...

Windsor is becoming more fruitful everytime I turn around. My eyes are being opened to so much hope and light shining through this city, I love it here, I really do. My hometown never really seemed this important to me before, but now Windsor holds a permanent place in my heart and I thank God for everyone I've come to know and love in the past nearly 17 years.


On a completely unrelated note,
I've been addicted to a few bands lately, namely As Cities Burn, The Chariot and Two Tongues. A fairly varied combination of bands haha, but they're all really really sick. Meaningful, soulful, heavy, thrashy, pretty much every awesome definition you can use to describe a cool band I'd use here.

So I'm learning the meaning of grace....slowly but surely...becoming stronger and wiser in my faith, and living up to the meaning behind my name, it's truly amazing.

-sof

Estrogen Fueled Rampage

uncontrollable jealousy is the worst thing I possess at the moment.

I don't want it.

I hate it.

I hate feeling this horrible flame devouring my heart everytime I see this.

BUT

I do not want to be lead on to thinking a certain thing about you and find out you're treating someone else better.

Why!??!

Why does everyone always get so sick of me after a couple weeks of knowing me?

Am I too awkward? Ugly? Fat? All three I think, really, this makes me feel terrible.

I can't hold on to anyone


I love them and they leave me and they don't want me
anymore


I am so heart broken.

it is not a good first day of 2009.