Retain and regrow

I am learning many new things these days.

I am holding on to them, and letting go of all that has deterred me from becoming my best.

I am learning who my best person can be and discovering how to finally grow out of all my worst habits that have prevented me from succeeding in a number of aspects in life.

It is very refreshing and exciting.

And some other weird things are happening that I'm not sure what to think about. I don't know what title to give them or what category to place them in, but it is a difference in the world I live in that I am happy to have.


My heart jumps around a little as I reflect on all of this.

I have been turning to greatly important things now, as a lot of crappy factors have been bringing me down lately. The prioritizing shift has had immensely positive effects, and I could not be more grateful.

God has not let me down with this hopelessness and feeling like I have been betrayed by all people I have invested so much love and emotion in. My family has come first after Him, and they are like my own saints. I am very blessed to have them upholding me no matter how I feel.

I'm being strengthened.

Though I'm confused as to why I can be so on fire for months, or years at a time, and then the fire can go away. I want it to stay, and I think as I'm reaching the age that most people like me discover who they really are, and what mode of living really makes sense for them, it will become easier for me to stay aflame.

This is very, very, very good.

Woohhhh my life is so much different. Already hanging out with people I FEEL the difference in my walk, energy, and attitude in social settings. It's craziness what a month and a half in a completely new environment (that you were born to thrive in) can do to your mind, heart and soul. It's great.

I'm on my way to a great adventure; I think I've begun it already.

Goodnight, and I will give praises to the One who has harvested these wonderful experiences and people in my life. Let this be the beginning of who I really am, growing to be manifested to my fullest brilliance.