AMAZING!

Today at youth I had a prayer session with Rebeckah and Tanya, and we were assigned to pray about the problems WCF was having, i.e. financial issues, marriage troubles, sick people etc. Rebeckah had a wonderful prayer for the sick, she was so inspired by the spirit to say the right words under God and I was very impressed with her prayers. Tanya prayed about the financial troubles and was also extremely good at expressing what the spirit put in her heart. I've always loved group prayer because it brings out the Holy Spirit in my soul a hundred times better than what I can do on my own. When Tanya was praying I was focusing on figuring out what I was going to pray about, the breaking marriages in the church. When my time came to lead prayer I started lifting up the problems to God and suddenly it felt like my tongue couldn't stop speaking and rolling and my heart was beating so fast and i felt like I was being lifted up somewhere. My mouth felt like something was controlling it and I loved every minute of it, the Spirit felt so real and present in my body it had taken over my speech almost! I was very nearly speaking in tongues, which was amazing because I hadn't felt the need to really do so in almost a year. It was so refreshing, so uplifing I didn't want to stop. I wanted to let out my spiritual groaning language but I figured I should just keep speaking English so Tanya and Rebeckah would continue to hear my prayers and support what I was saying, for if I spoke in tongues what would happen? I dunno, i'll probably just do it next time. It was a HUGE blessing. I'm so glad it happened. I really want more of those group prayers because I feel like I super benefitted off that experience. I want more holy spirit :)

YAY!

Also , the sermon tonight was pretty decent. I felt like I sort of learned something for once. Tonight was full of surprises, burdens, smiles and teachings. Lots of lessons. I'm glad I am who I am and not some other person. I gotta learn to keep my pride down. I wanna defeat the devil in me and release the LORD who is at work in my soul and life. I need to deny my sin to the point of blood!

ERgh!
I will win this war with God on my side