everything is busy.

the season.
school.
schoolwork.
extracurricular stuff.
staying active.
keeping up with my leisure reading.
keeping up with reading the Word.
keeping up with church.
keeping up with making everyone happy.
trying to keep myself happy, when all i'm feeling is deserted, empty, fake, abandoned and lost.
this time around last year, i was in my prime.
school was school, still busy, but my life with God was fruitful and constantly growing.
up until a few months ago i was good as gold.
now i'm rusty and wheezy and i've lost my way
perhaps i should pick my head up out of the past and dive deeper into what i must become in the future.
i sound like a samurai..

i don't keep up with music anymore.
downloading albums, whatever.
it's okay. i've got a lot of music i haven't tired of, and a lot of radio tunes that keep my energy levels up

but it's all not enough

only You sustain me more than these hollow pleasures of the world

i can't think like this anymore.
my worst problems that have lasted for years haven't changed.
i'm a hypocrite and an idiot for chasing after what i should never fall for

BUT
this is where HE steps in
and i'm counting on him.

my heart will come full circle.

the perserverance begins,
the revolution is now