i wish i had the backbone to own up to what ive been doing for so many years.

i wish i had the strength to fix everything by one conversation.

i wish i was not so weak as to cower back and hope i can fix everything by baby steps in the right direction.

i wish it was so easy for everything to be remedied.

i wish i wasn't such a failure.

i wish i had never molded myself into this wretched mindset that has not left me alone but grown after so many years.

i wish i had strength.

i wish i didn't have to do this alone.

but i know it's all my fault, so unfortunately, this is what i am faced with.

i just don't want to do it alone.

i'm so alone.