PS

I apologize about the 2nd last post i wrote... it was unnecessarily harsh and vulgar.

Being angry gives way to awful things. it was truly uncontrollable, the things i said.

I'll try to curb posts of fury to my best efforts.

As well... I'm getting a strange feeling I shouldn't be majoring in drama anymore. I genuinely want to learn to act, but the drama program at windsor is more focused on technical theatre-- like stage design, directing, sets, lighting, etc. Which i think is definitely not something i should put my degree towards. The BFA Acting program is definitely legit about acting, but theres no way i can major in that, or even minor in it. So i guess there goes that. There are about 3 actual acting classes in the regular BA honours program for drama, but they aren't till 3rd or 4th year, and why should i waste classes on mundane things like set design and scenery painting?? Not that those arent fun and interesting aspects of theatre, but certianly not worthy to spend tuition on.

Okay.... we'll see how this goes. If i get any more intuitive instinct on this, and when i pray on it, if everything comes back negative, i'll drop my drama major and stick with English. THIS way, i have room for another elective!!! yess, i am so excited on getting those done. Some electives i'm even very interested in taking. Psych is definitely one of them. Maybe a history class too. Even better--- theres a two part (one per semester) Introductory Drawing class for non art-majors, so CHA CHING, if i cant (probably wont) be able to cut it for an Art major with all the incredibly talented kids who would kill my self esteem and confidence if i were to take classes with them... then this is certainly enough :) Besides.. drawing is my best skill in art. Painting is not my strength yet and scultping is very fun but drawing has been my passion from the get go. I just love it.

So maybe this isnt all so bad.

It seems like i'm solving my own problems here... so that advising appointment tomorrow seems a little less necessary at this present moment... but i can't cancel now. I have a few things i could use clarity on in terms of degree audits.

Last thing, im really sorry i write such boring crap on here. who really wants to read about the worries i have about school and classes?! Truth is, i'm the biggest perfectionist and the thought of taking a course that will not benefit my degree requirements terrifies me to no end... thats why i always stress myself out over stuff like this. Thank God for the summer, I've figured out so much stuff that has prepared me a great amount for a first year nubsauce like me.

Only two more weeks..